Reliving desperation and admiration

I interviewed with a BBC Radio show today. (It won’t air until next week. I’ll let you know when.) The topic for the host started out as basically, people being almost addicted to their cell phones. Then by chance during an internet search she came across my story.

If you somehow aren’t aware yet, I first joined Twitter and social media in 2009 while I was homeless. What started out as me not knowing a thing about Twitter or how to even use it, quickly grew to experiences that I’d have never dreamed of ever having! I could use computers at the library during the day, but other than that, I mostly tweeted by SMS/text message from my phone. My phone was my life — my dire connection to the world in my times of need. I could call someone, text or email by SMS. I didn’t have a smartphone. Just a simple, basic phone. A dumb phone. In fact, that’s the type of phone I use now.

I had unlimited texting so I could post messages to Twitter as much as I wanted, anytime I wanted, all day and all night. Whenever I had a need to say something. Which, back then, was quite a lot! I posted about my activities, shared thoughts or information on jobs or things I heard about, and wrote volumes of tweets from my emotions.

Fear, anxiety, and prayers dominated many of my tweets. I shared a number of hopes and wishes, too. There were many nights I lied on the ground, afraid and paranoid that someone would come up to me in the night. Is someone watching? Is someone here? Who is here watching me? Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) affected me severely. There I was alone, but I couldn’t tell because my mind conjured up invisible people who might have been lurking.

I kept my “security blanket” tightly in hand all night. My phone was my connection to the world. Anytime I needed to say something, to vent, to express my fears, somebody was able to hear me. I couldn’t get their replies until I went to the computers at the library the next day, but they were there. Somebody cared. Another person suffered the same plight of PTSD once. I’m really not alone.

The tweets from my phone led to development of virtual and real-life relationships with people and businesses. Through my sincerity and openness of my life, stigma changed to acceptance, understanding, and kindness. I got to see God’s love in action, and emotion. These people — my social media followers — said that I changed them for the better. What I saw is how they changed me.

Sharing my story online and in real life at speaking engagements has helped me to open up. I am still shy and very socially awkward, but I am much more open with my emotions. Having constant access to my phone and being able to tweet by text has been extremely therapeutic.

I still tweet Clint Eastwood style — the good, the bad, and the ugly. Sometimes I feel that I share too much. But I need to get things out. Sometimes I need to vent. In a way, being able to tweet and vent my emotions is more than emotionally therapeutic. It can also be protective against bad thoughts so I don’t try to self-injure. I haven’t done any cutting in however many years. It doesn’t mean I don’t sometimes still have those thoughts about doing it. So I greatly appreciate the kindness and compassion from all of you, my followers. A small gift, a kind word, a hug. It means the world to me! God’s love in action, indeed.

I discussed all of these areas and more on the BBC Radio show. (Again, I will share the link to the broadcast after it airs.) Talking about these things have so much effect on me emotionally! Ever since then my thoughts have been on all of my followers and how you have affected me, the place you have in my heart. I am reliving the desperation of my past and the admiration and love for the compassion I have received. Thank you all so much!

PS: Side note to Joan of Real Time Paradigm, my blogging teacher at NextDoor:  I clicked “Publish”! 😜

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Police Apprehend Pig; Suspect Was On The Loose For Weeks; Bail Not Determined

(HENRICO, Va.) — A pot-bellied pig that had been on the loose for weeks in a Virginia neighborhood has been nabbed by police. The Richmond Times-Dispatch reports that the pig had become a familiar sight in Henrico’s Twin Hickory subdivision as it scurried around the neighborhood. Police finally caught the pig Tuesday morning after it…

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Navigate the snowy wilds of Mongolia with this nomadic reindeer herding family.

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Missing you.

I have been neglecting this blog and all of my readers, and I am sorry for that. I really have been thinking of you! Actually, for quite some time I was locked out of my account due to a new phone and 2-Step Authentication. I had backup codes but couldn’t find them. Finally I emailed WordPress with the details and proof of my identity and got things fixed. So I’m back! You don’t know how good it feels to have access to this blog again! Besides sharing interesting things and tidbits about my life, my Klout and EmpireKred scores have been suffering. LOL.

A lot has obviously happened since the last I posted. I am tired and won’t go in to everything now. I would like to say, however, that I remember how it was to be homeless. My heart goes out to those facing that situation. I help how I can, when I can, but it is not enough. I sometimes stand out among people on the CTA because I will smile and interact with homeless people riding the transit with me. There are times when others might move to another section of the bus or actually unboard the bus to wait for the next one on the same route–simply because the homeless individual was social. That being even when the homeless person did NOT have a traumatic scent. Just because of…being nice. 😦

 

Woman flashes judge during bond hearing

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BROWARD COUNTY, Flor. — A woman was having her day in court when she displayed exhibit-A and exhibit-B.

Susan Surrette was in court in Broward County, Florida, for disorderly intoxication, when she flashed her breasts at the judge.

During a conversation with Judge John Hurley, Surrette said she was a hair dresser and had another job.

“You’re also what,” asked Hurley.

“Kayla Kupcakes.  I’m an escort too,” answered Surrette.

Surrette calls herself Kayla Kupckakes on her website, which advertises her as a porn star, an escort, and a private dancer.

Back in court, Surrette complained about being mistreated by police.

She pointed to several parts of her body before she lifted up her shirt and exposed her bare breasts.

“Oh my lord,” said Judge Hurley before he set her bond.

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Man gets invited to stranger’s bachelor party by mistake — but he’s going anyways

Love this!

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SEATTLE — In a couple of weeks, Joey DiJulio is flying across the country for a bachelor party. Good times with old buds, right? Not exactly.

Joey doesn’t know who’s attending the party. In fact, he’s never even met the groom.

No, it’s not the plot of a new Vince Vaughn movie or a remake of the old Tom Hanks movie. Joey is flying from Seattle to Philadelphia to attend the bachelor party of Jeff Minetti, a man he’s never met, has no connection to and only spoken to twice via email.

How it happened

On Feb. 11, Joey received an email from an email address he didn’t recognize. The email thread began:

People,

Has anyone else noticed now that Jeff has been rocking the beard for a while – he looks like a middle aged Pavarotti? At times, he also has ventured into a bit of hipster phase. In…

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WGN weatherman reenacts sports highlights after video fails

Gotta love my fave crazy WGN Morning News!

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CHICAGO — No video? No problem.

WGN Morning News has been experiencing technical difficulties this morning – but have no fear, Demetrius Ivory is here.

Weatherman Demetrius Ivory helped Marcus Leshock report sports news with a little reenactment.

Watch the hilarious video in the player above

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VIDEO: Redneck ALS Ice Bucket Challenge

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Surfin’ the Web – 4 stars

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Dan Ponce welcomes Lourdes Duarte to the WGN Morning News

I so love Dan Ponce’s musical talent!

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