Mental Chaos

Tonight my mind is succumbing to overpowering thoughts of what happened last night. I have not been able to get this memory out of my head all day. It is taking its toll on me now tonight. Too many thoughts, so many bad memories. Last night, overnight, I had a bad dream related to my PTSD. So much happened in it. And so many people. My ex-husband, my family, friends, my children’s old pediatrician (who touched me inappropriately once), and so many others. My children as well, separately and in different parts of the dream, as babies. At one point in the dream I held the corpse of my baby. Much more happened but this holds in my mind the most. Decay was already starting to settle in. I miss my children so much! I wish they knew the truth about me. I wish they would feel my love.  I need you, Kerry and Patrick.  Please, learn the real reason why I have not been able to see you for so long. I love you!

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3 comments on “Mental Chaos
  1. padschicago says:

    I am feeling better! I might cry from happiness for a month or more! I have cried so many times before because I’ve missed you and your sister. I’ve had so many bad dreams and emotions and still love for you. You and Kerry are the reason I am still pushing forward in life trying to make things better. You are my LIFE!
    Hugs and kisses,
    Love, Mom ♥

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  2. Patrick Walsh says:

    I am sorry I wasn’t aware of how bad you felt and I never knew how upset you were until now:-(. now you should feel better now that we can see each other again 🙂

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  3. kermit moses says:

    oh they know the truth its around arlington heights

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