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Many know that I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) due to previous abuse and rape from my past. Not having contact with my children is a related issue. My children are with my ex-husband , whom I react to with the PTSD. So not having contact with my children is a double whammy. As is normal in PTSD sufferers, I have bad dreams–if not nightmares–every night about family and my kids. They can affect my mood. Life can be very difficult. I think about my children every day and night, though they probably don`t realize it. And I miss them, and love them oh so very much!!! I wish they understood that. I wish I could hug them again. I will cry whenever that time may come. I can`t say for certain that the emotions won`t be so extreme to overwhelm me. They probably will. I cant say what will or could happen. But I do know how much I have always loved them and miss them. XOXOXOXO