The shelter sites will close before long. Then what will I do? Where will I go? I am still trying to figure it out. I am a little scared. I’ve had problems in the past with other homeless people following me and watching me in the night. I got paranoid last summer because of it and over-stressed. To learn that an alcoholic homeless guy followed me “home” to my outdoor sleeping place for the purpose of watching me sleep because he liked me! I can’t live like that again being scared that someone is watching and following me! Plus my physical health issues aren’t helped by sleeping outside. Why can’t I find a job as a house-sitter or live-in something? I am not mentally prepared to be able to live outside again. Yet any housing program I try, they don’t like my psych history and that I ‘m not on meds and refuse to accept me. Though if they did accept me, I would be able to see a psychiatrist who they refer to and be able to start meds right away. All these places want me already on psych drugs. How do I get the psych drugs when I can’t get any psychiatrist willing to see me because I have no money, and no organization will accept me as a patient because I don’t have a “residence”?! What the heck am I supposed to do?! Keep looking. Its about all I can do. Its depressing. Reject after reject. I want a place to live, I want psych care, I want my physical health issues taken care of, I want to go to school and have a job. I want to have a life.